The moment I listened to the song "Fading away" by Ollie, I knew that one day I have to capture the lyrics in images. I feel strongly connected to this song, as it is an honest and true self-reflection. The author has very similar problems and socially analytical perspectives as I have. I have not drunk much alcohol myself for a longer period of time; I went to parties and did not consume much alcohol, just observing what a huge impact it has on people consuming it. But even then, I could enjoy the party seeing everyone around me gaining more courage and power like after drinking a supernatural magic potion of Panoramix. But as soon as the magical power disappeared people lost control and physically or mentally broke down. Well of course, it is nothing new, everyone knows the consequences of overdosed alcohol consumption. But it opened my eyes! And since then I really reconnected to this song by Ollie. Another important part of this song deals with Instagram. It caused me many troubles, stress and discomfort, as I mentioned in a previous article.
Now, after being on a sick leave for 3 weeks, not able to leave the house - as by Polish law, I am obliged to stay at home during my sick leave - I definitely did turn endless circles in my head. Questions, over questions and questions. Once my head started to sincerely hurt, I knew it was a wake-up call for action! So I set myself a new challenge: shooting indoor with artificial light sources. Something, I have never done before. And for sure, I wanted to implement my thoughts of the last weeks into those images. So I immediately messaged Theo, the first model I could imagine to fit to this series, shared my plan with her and invited her to my home.
The moment she entered the flat, she probably came to the messiest shooting set-up of all time: dirty dishes all over the place, open bottles of beer and vodka, food leftovers and trash. Pretty messy concept for a first indoor shooting, I have to admit. It was actually very difficult for me to create such a mess. I'm way better at making order, which I could do for sure after the shoot. But the work was definitely worth it aa things worked out perfectly. After two hours of shooting we had all images we needed.
Have you ever based a visual story on a song? Or just single images? What were your experiences?
To summarise my experience:
This new challenge encouraged me to go a new path, even though I was afraid of failing at it. It gave me more confidence, released the mental stress in my head and fostered my creativity. As I constantly seek to grow as a photographer and artist I keep focussing on my goals only, forgetting what I have already achieved. And now, I finally came to this point looking back at my achievements. Only one year ago, I started shooting portraits and I can finally say that I am proud of myself and my hard work! I would have never considered to be able to take such images. I love them!
Thanks to Theo for helping me with my challenge.
Model: Theodora Căpruşu - @theocaprusu